Stupid Girl

Its been a while with zero slip ups and no desire to contact him whatsoever. Since giving him the axe (not literally, although Ive thought about it lmfao) my depression has lifted quite a bit (although some credit has to go out to weaning off celexa and adding some lamictal). I still have my "blah" days as usual but not a "OMFG i made a horrible mistake" days.

Tonight was the first night I had the thought "I CAN live without him". And even though I went through that thought to start the process of elimination, this is the first "I am okay" feeling. And I havent had that feeling in 2 years.