Stupid Girl

Last night I had an...episode, of some sort. Around 730-8pm I aquired the cold sweats and naseousness. Then noise started to bother me by hyper acting my senses. I was also shakey and twitchy. And then I became "weird" (hard to explain it, but I just didnt feel right).

I then took my meds like I always do, as well as prescribed, at 830pm. I continue to have the episode.

I try to go lay down after I had enough with too much noise in the living room as well as naseousness.

Well after a while I start to question myself, such as "am I really me?" and "who exactly am I?". I didnt have the physical symptoms of dissociation, but it definitely was the thoughts of dissociation.

I then start to feel depressed and think things like "I am never going to have a family" and "I am never going to get a job".

I then turn off the light and go to sleep, and sleep well actually with less vivid dreams than usual. I then wake up completely fine.

In all honesty, it felt exactly lik quitting a Benzo cold turkey and being off of it for 3 days. So it was like a withdraw, without the actual withdraw.

My dad called my Psychiatrist today an asked his opinion. He told me to go back to 10mg of Celexa because that might do the trick. I honestly dont think my Psychiatrist knows what happened, or what to do.

I do see him next week, so hopefully some things will be accomplished.