Stupid Girl

So I saw my pdoc today. I am now completely off celexa, its in the files that i am on 3mg of klonopin a day (.5mg PRN) and my lamictal was upped by 50mg.

But I left aggrevated... again.

I spewed out all my "i think too much" and "i cant read a freakin paragraph to save my life" and "i cant even PRETEND to freaking sit still anymore" and i suggested trying Strattera (since he is way against stims) because we have talked about all this before. And he just says "that doesnt sound like ADHD". And Im like "HUH?? What?". I didnt get it. He said "its THE THINGS on my mind that is causing the symptoms". And that made me even more confused. I mean WHAT exactly am i thinking? I mean besides the ongoing story since i was a baby i created in my head and the 3 stories i am working on and making assumptions and ideas about the past, present and future. So its all THAT? or what exactly am I thinking to make myself like this? But hes the professional. And he told me straterra wont help any of my symptoms. Maybe hes psychic too.

But he also said to just do these new changes this month and we will deal with that "other stuff" later. Okie dokie (i mean whatever). And I asked "well what in the hell am i suppossed to do until then?" and he said "i dont know".

Sigh.

Anyway...

I see my GP on tues. So I can talk about the anemia and see if i still have it and the possible hypoglycemia and the migraines and the staring spells. He is going to love me :))))))